Monday, April 13, 2009

Aaaah, Drinking on Easter! Jesus would have wanted it this way.


So, just came off a long weekend of drinking and hanging with friends for Easter.  It's been interesting as the time gets closer for my first movie with Mustang to finally be released.  I'm not exactly sure what's going to happen, but my friends in the industry have started asking me 'if I'm ready for it.'  There's no way to prepare for the mind-fuck that happens when you see yourself cumming in a scene, or seeing your mouth and ass full of cock, and that knowledge that everyone can see that for all eternity.  However more than that, is the expectation from others that you're going to be some big porn star in some way, when from your own perspective there's absolutely no way to gage whether that's true.  A friend of mine who does porn, asked me at a cocktail party how I was going to feel about the upcoming fame, and lack of privacy.  My only answer was, "This is the choice I made, and I fully expect to lose my privacy.  After all, I've not only made myself into this public commodity to be sold, but people that watch me will believe me to be an intimate part of their lives.  It's hard for them not to feel that way, when I've invaded their TV set at home, and cum with them.  They will always feel like they know me."  The only thing I can do at this point, is try to stay grounded, and keep my friends very close.  Like my buddy Mitch in this picture from Easter.  He keeps me laughing, and reminds me who I am.   The countdown is beginning.... hopefully I won't have a min-freak out when the first film gets released. 

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